Archive | September 2026

A Grace Seldom Mentioned

I stood looking out of the window over my daughter’s kitchen sink. Watery, late April morning sunshine gave such pale light that it not only gave little warmth but seemed to leach the color from the backyard pine trees and the mud-rutted driveway. Three cars were parked near the house. One belonged to me, and the other two belonged to friends of my daughter. They were busy cleaning the house and doing her laundry so she could take care of her newborn baby. Three of my grandchildren sat at the kitchen table playing cards. Three others sat in the living room and the two-year-old stood next to her mother watching her nurse the baby.

Only just last week, the spring air felt more friendly. Warm, happy afternoon sunshine flooded into my dining room as my daughter gathered her children in preparation for leaving. At the door she stopped and said, “Is it okay if we drop off the kids on our way to the hospital to have the baby? They want to come with us because they said it was tradition.” I laughingly gave my consent. After all, it was my tradition, too!

The following week, our whole world turned upside down. My daughter’s husband died in a freak accident and their baby was born. Suddenly, people we usually only saw at church, weddings, and at birthday parties brought casseroles, salads, and desserts. They were coming to clean her house, help with the many other chores a mother has in raising a big family, and to keep her company.

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Waking up with a Kick

After my tonsillectomy surgery was over, but before I was fully awake, two nurses put me on a cart and returned me to my room in the pediatric unit. I drowsily noticed that Mom and Daddy and my brother Billy were in the room waiting for me. Mom brushed the bangs off my forehead. Daddy stood quietly watching me with love in his eyes. At the foot of the bed, Billy discovered that the blanket covering me covered everything but one foot. Doing what was instinctive as a brother, he reached down and tickled my foot. My instinctive reaction was to pull back my knee like a piston and transfered all my energy into a well-placed kick.

More than a year earlier, I came down with a sore throat. This sore throat was different than any other sore throat I’d ever had. Besides being very painful, it seemed as though I couldn’t swallow anything. When Mom told me to open my mouth so she could take a look, she gasped, “Your tonsils are so swollen, they are nearly touching! I’m going to take you to see Doctor Kroeplin in Stratford.”

Mom’s reaction scared me; I cried. Then I got the mirror from the bathroom to look at my own throat. I saw two huge, red, shiny lumps of inflamed flesh covered with white streaks. They didn’t look like they belonged where they were. When Doctor Kroeplin looked in my throat, he said, “Kathy has strep throat. If it isn’t treated with penicillin, she could get rheumatic fever.” The large, bitter pills he prescribed needed to be taken daily.

I gagged easily and found swallowing pills impossible to do. To complicate things, penicillin pills taste terrible. Mom was desperate to get them into me because of what the doctor said. She tried to hide them in spoonfuls of apple sauce. The apple sauce went down, but I gagged out the bitter pill. Orange juice was a rare treat in our house, so she got some, thinking it would help me swallow the pills. I spit up the juice along with the pill onto the kitchen linoleum. I ended up having to go back to see the doctor to be given a penicillin shot in my rump. As much as I didn’t like that, it was better than swallowing pills.

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Eating Bonnie and Clyde

Billy asked, “What do you want to name them?” I looked at their small eyes and listened to them snuffle before answering, “They look like they’re up to no good. We should call them Bonnie and Clyde.”

A section of wooden fence placed at an angle allowed people to be one step inside the pen to feed and check on the animals but not get their feet dirty in the muck that would quickly develop after a few days. I stared at the two lumpy looking, rather furless animals. My brother Billy asked, “What names should we give them?”

The animals made snuffling noises with their rubbery snouts. Unlike large-eyed Disney princesses, they had ridiculously small eyes fringed with blond lashes. I didn’t see them as endearing and felt no remorse at all knowing that when fall arrived, we would butcher them so we could have pork and sauerkraut meals, bacon for breakfast and breaded pork chops. I suggested, “They look like they’re up to no good. We should call them Bonnie and Clyde.”

The small building beside the machine shed where Bonnie and Clyde lived that summer frequently changed its purpose. Before reaching my teen years, I knew it as a chicken pen, goat hut, heifer lounge, and a pigsty. A row of windows on the south wall let in light. A door on the west wall allowed a person to enter to feed the animals. A door on the east wall allowed the animals to go outside to enjoy fresh air in a sheltered, fenced-in area behind the machine shed.

The pigs loved to eat, and it seemed like they ate everything, not only the pig feed that Daddy provided, but all the kitchen scraps that Mom put in a bowl for me to carry across the yard to them each evening. It took Bonnie and Clyde only a few minutes to chow down half-eaten hotdogs, broccoli stems, apple cores, potato peels, and fat cut off a beef roast.

Outside, beneath the south-facing windows, grew huge clumps of rhubarb, no doubt liberally fertilized through the years by a large variety of animal dung. In the spring, before returning the empty bowl to the kitchen, I’d yank out a stalk. Some of the stalks were as large as my wrists, and I loved dipping them into sugar and eating them!

As the days passed and the summer slowly blossomed, the nearby strawberry patch yielded huge, red, sweet berries. A row of cherry trees along the strawberries provided cherries for pies and the garden kept Mom busy canning. Meanwhile, Bonnie and Clyde grew fat. I sometimes watched them rooting in the soil behind their shed. Some days they were covered with dust, on rainy days they wallowed in muddy puddles. They seemed so happy, snuffling, grunting, oinking and making horrible squealing sounds when they fought over a tasty find in the mud.

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